Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
LA Public Library
Last Friday I spent the entire day immersed in the poetry stacks of the LA Public Library.
They have a great collection of rare books, chapbooks, and limited edition pressings signed by the writer. They really should have a department specifically devoted to the study and spread of poetry. Its a shame since the collection is so nice but never showcased...
I checked out a collection of Robert Creeleys that I have been wanting a long time. I've decided I must eventually own a copy of each of his books. I wanted to share some poems from him that I copied into my journal:
for Bobbie
They have a great collection of rare books, chapbooks, and limited edition pressings signed by the writer. They really should have a department specifically devoted to the study and spread of poetry. Its a shame since the collection is so nice but never showcased...
I checked out a collection of Robert Creeleys that I have been wanting a long time. I've decided I must eventually own a copy of each of his books. I wanted to share some poems from him that I copied into my journal:
For Love
by Robert Creeley
for Bobbie
Yesterday I wanted to
speak of it, that sense above
the others to me
important because all
that I know derives
from what it teaches me.
Today, what is it that
is finally so helpless,
different, despairs of its own
statement, wants to
turn away, endlessly
to turn away.
If the moon did not ...
no, if you did not
I wouldn’t either, but
what would I not
do, what prevention, what
thing so quickly stopped.
That is love yesterday
or tomorrow, not
now. Can I eat
what you give me. I
have not earned it. Must
I think of everything
as earned. Now love also
becomes a reward so
remote from me I have
only made it with my mind.
Here is tedium,
despair, a painful
sense of isolation and
whimsical if pompous
self-regard. But that image
is only of the mind’s
vague structure, vague to me
because it is my own.
Love, what do I think
to say. I cannot say it.
What have you become to ask,
what have I made you into,
companion, good company,
crossed legs with skirt, or
soft body under
the bones of the bed.
Nothing says anything
but that which it wishes
would come true, fears
what else might happen in
some other place, some
other time not this one.
A voice in my place, an
echo of that only in yours.
Let me stumble into
not the confession but
the obsession I begin with
now. For you
also (also)
some time beyond place, or
place beyond time, no
mind left to
say anything at all,
that face gone, now.
Into the company of love
it all returns.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Asleep at the same time.
1
Swam in a lake brown
with Water
to a house in Indiana.
To a tree.
To a lamp-post cinder-tied to the ground thrown against it.
2
I am standing on the parched porch leaves watching—
Guy taking a leak in the sun burnt stair well.
Clothes hanging dry on the branch line.
What is there more than soft bed, soft sheets.
Where to it?
Where to it and why, poem—
Up the page into pure white?
My mind falls open on it.
Swam in a lake brown
with Water
to a house in Indiana.
To a tree.
To a lamp-post cinder-tied to the ground thrown against it.
2
I am standing on the parched porch leaves watching—
Guy taking a leak in the sun burnt stair well.
Clothes hanging dry on the branch line.
What is there more than soft bed, soft sheets.
Where to it?
Where to it and why, poem—
Up the page into pure white?
My mind falls open on it.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Green Christmas.
This was, my green Christmas. Hanukkah too. There are eight days in Hanukkah but actually nine candles on the Menorah. One is the starter candle. Ian's dad read jumbled hebrew as the youngest person lights the first candle and then the next youngest and so on and so forth. And you don't blow them out, you let them burn all the way down. For dinner we had potato pancakes. It was good. Very warm.. It was wonderful. I love Ian's family.
On Christmas we went to Ian's grandma's house. Mansion rather. The table was so long. The best part was Ian, his dad, brother, cousins, and the caretakers husband, all jamming out some serious tunes... I have never experienced a Christmas where everyone got together and played music.
We are living with Ian's Aunt Marie and his Uncle Pat in their house on an acre of land in the San Gabriel Valley. The Mountain is hanging above us. Ian and I take drives up in the Mountains. I think I am obsessed with them now. We have a little pale blue room with a big old bed. Everything is tucked nicely away and always tidy. Ian is playing electric guitar in the other room and its sounds beautiful.
The acre of land that surround this old house (1931) is mostly occupied by fruit trees, (avocado, lemon, grapefruit- both kinds - oranges and tangerines) Bird houses (huge ones, for doves, rock doves, little blue cockateels, finches ( i think )), cactus, birds of paradise flowers and roses. Feral chickens nest in the huge oak tree, the goats eat all our scraps in the back yard. I haven't seen the pig in ages, but the dogs are all accounted for. The only two in the house are the special dogs, Meemer, who was dropped on her head as a pup, and Boxer, he's deaf. Meemer is a Pomeranian and Boxer is a white boxer.
There are lots of other animals all around, some I haven't seen yet. Everything is a discovery here. A few weeks back I saw a stunted forest Marie is growing. Pruning the trees so they stay tiny. Its such a peaceful place. I feel I am finding myself and what I want to do again. Feeling at rest.
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